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Hello my fellow Buddy Slimers I have been away for a year and a half I had a beautiful baby girl and she is a wonderful addition to my family. She made my family complete. Also I lost a woman that was also my best friend and Aunt to cancer I have been through alot. So along with having a second child came on he pounds. Every bit of weight I lost post pregnancy I gained back not during pregnancy but after pregnacny isnt that weird?? I did excellent while I was pregnant but once she came home everything was fast speed and I was so focused on being a mommy of two beautiful kids as a wonderful wife and along the way I lost control of what was important. My health it’s hard Im a stay at home mom as well as a new business owner so I have alot on my plate, but I have to stop and take control. So I am going to do this I know I can Im just going to get back dedicated the way I was before. So Buddy slimmers watch my shrink.

I LOVE THIS SITE SO MUCH FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT WE CAN EXPRESS OURSELVES IN MANY WAYS WELL I HAVENT BEEN MUCH OF A SPORT LATELY WITH THIS SITE I HAVE BEEN WITHDRAWN FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS, CO WORKERS IRRITABLE AND JUST DOWN RIGHT A CRY BABY. AND MY DIET HA!!! FORGET IT I HAVE BEEN EATING FRENCH FRIES DIPPED IN RANCH EVERYDAY THIS WEEK AND. WELL IM SURE YOU GEUSSED IT. YEP IM PREGNANT. I HAVE BEEN OFF BIRTH CONTROL FOR 2 YEARS NOW AND FINALLY WE CONCEIVED AGAIN. IM WONT KNOW THE EXACT ANYTHING UNTIL MY FIRST APPT. I WILL KEEP YOU GUYS INFORMED BUT IM SO GLAD THAT I HAVE DEVELOPED HEALTHY EATING HABITS AND ALL I WANT IS TO HAVE A HEALTHIER PREGNANCY NOT LIKE LAST TIME. MY SON IS GOING TO HAVE A SIBLING AND IM HAPPY FOR HIM.. ENJOY YOUR JOURNEY.

Hello all i wanted to write a blog before work and make a confession about myself. Ok as many of you may know I am a weight watchers member as well as a YMCA member and for the past 3 weeks I have totally neglected them both. There I said it im glad Im no longer in denial and I have accepted it for what is is. Ok it all began the weekend before my vacation I had a great weigh in at my weight watchers meeting which I love to attend every Saturday morning. And the week following I was on vacation from work I wasn’t out of the state or anything I was home eating I didnt once go to the gym I had in the back of my mind Oh Im ok this is my vacation and I can chill this week no biggie. So lo and behold money issues hit hard to home so I wasnt able to attend that weeks weight watchers meeting, of course I brushed it off and said ok Monday work is starting and I will be back on track with my eating and exercising. HA HA monday came and I went in the other direction. I will admit I didnt make it to the gym either that week but i did mange to get in a little indoor walk off the pounds with my girl Leslie Sansone Dvd. and I only would work out for like 15 minutes or so.  That was the week that i feel slack of my logging of food, my water intake, activity and I withdrew from friends and family. Eveything sort of made me irritable I even deleted my page here on buddy slim the week before becasue I felt like everyone was out to get me. I would take peoples comments to my blogs a little offensive and would blow up and I finally said forget this site. Now i realize it wasnt anybody said or did I was just dissapointed in myself that I couldnt do the simple task of waking every morning to go workout and hearing everyone else victories were a bit intimidating. And i regret deleting my page so that is why I am back reason you say? well I will rather hear an ugly truth that a beautiful lie anyday. But anyway week three was last week and Im unsure if you guys heard of the major gas crisis here in NC well there was a bad shortage thanks god it is finally coming in slowly but I was totally out of gas I mean I called out three days because I couldnt go anywhere car was empty, so of course no gym, no grocery store, no health food, and no wright watchers weigh- in but of course there was plenty of delivery options as well as my son and my fiance food here. I told myself well if I eat it in moderation I wont gain right??? WRONG   I got on the home scale in which I never trust anyway and it didnt show a gain but it did show a 2 pound loss so I was like whoo hoo I can pig out and work it off. Man huge mistake so I fianally smacked myself and said Melinda what are you doing? so I sent emails of my before and after pics to my friends and family and I got so much positive feed back and was like I cannot go back looking that way I just can’t and I wont. Im going through so much right now more finacially than anything else right now but I said if I didnt find a way to pay for the things I needed I will surely pay for it later from if i decide not to be haelthier now. But anyway I broke down went to a weight watchers meeting and purchased my monthly pass and went to the store and purchased all my foods. I also had to weigh in and you guys it showed I gained 4 pounds that means each week I didnt attend meetings I gained a pound and a quarter which sucks. But Im commited again I promise I know this wont be easy and Im not making it out to be but I have to lose this weight and stay commited. Im commited to everything and everybody else why not be commited to my weight loss? So there is is I confessed to a huge slip up I feel somewhat better Im just glad I didnt let it get to out of hand. You guys help me out alot and you dont even realize it. Thanks for taking time out to read my blog.

I WONDER HOW MANY HAVE SAW THIS OR EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT IT IF YOU LOOK AT IT YES IT DOES SPELL THAT WORD US HERE ALL LOVE SO MUCH..YEP YOU GOT IT “DESSERTS” AND I CAN FIANLLY ADMIT TO MYSELF AND OTHERS THAT I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER. I NEVER IDENTIFIED WHERE MY STRUGGLES COME FROM AND NOW I KNOW. LATELY I HAVE BEEN WEARING THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD AND LIFE ISSUES AS WELL AS ALL OF THIS WEIGHT IM TRYING TO LOSE ON MY SHOULDER. I KNOW LIFE HAPPENS AND WE ARE TO DEAL WITH IT AND MOVE AROUND IT AND I HAVE BUT IT SEEMS LIKE ONCE AN OBSTACLE IS DONE ANOTHER ONE APPEARS, AND I CAN ADMIT IT THROWS ME OFF A LITTLE BIT AS FAR AS MY DIETING IS CONCERNED. I NEVER SAID I WAS PERFECT BUT I OFTEN WONDER WHY AM I SO GOOD AT GIVING ADVICE AND SUPPORT TO OTHERS BUT I CANT LIVE BY MY OWN WORDS MORE THAN OFTEN. I AM SO ALONE I HAVE ALWAYS SHOWED SUPPORT TO “FRIENDS” AND FAMILY BUT WHEN I REALLY NEED SUPPORT NOBODY IS THERE FOR ME. GUYS YOU WOULND’T BELIEVE WHAT CHARLOTTE, NC IS GOING TROUGH RIGHT NOW. WE ARE TOTALLY OUT OF GAS HERE THE STREETS ARE A GHOST TOWN AND EMPLOYERS ARE LOSING WORKERS I HAD TO CALL IN TO WORK BECAUSE I RAN OUT OF GAS TRYNG TO FIND IT, CARS ARE LINED ALL DOWN STREETS AND HIGHWAYS SIDE STREETS ETC. I NEED FOOD, TOOTHPASTE, MILK AND MY OWN MOM CALLED ME BRAGGING ABOUT FINDING GAS AND DIDNT OFFER TO BUY ME ANY TO PUT INTO A GAS CAN SO I CAN AT LEAST MAKE IT TO A STATION. MY AUNT DID THE SAME ON TOP OF ALL THAT MY FIANCE IS OUT OF WORK DUE TO CHANGES MADE AT HIS JOB, I NEED TO GO THE DOCTORS DENTIST/EYE/ AND MEDICAL BUT I CANT AFFORD THE CO-PAYMENTS, I HAVENT BEEN TO THE GYM IN 2 WEEKS CUZ OF GAS, I HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT AND NOBODY HAS TIME FOR ME, MY HOUSE IS A WRECK AND I DONT HAVE THE ENERGY TO CLEAN IT, BILLS ARE PILLING IN AND THERE IS OONLY ONE INCOME NOW, MY CAR NEEDS TIRES, AND TO MAKE IT ALL WORST LAST NIGHT AROUND 3:30 AM MY SON BODY DECIDES IT WANTS TO GET SICK HE WOKE UP SCREAMING IN THIS HORRIFIC CRY I NEVER HEARD BEFORE AND OF COURSE I CANT GET IN MY CAR TO TAKE HIM TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM “NO GAS” SO AFTER BEING SO STRONG AND KNOCKING OFF EACH PROBLEM AS THEY CAME IT ALL JUST HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS AND I CAME TUMBLING DOWN HARD. I CRIED LIKE A BABY AND I KNOW I KEEP JUNK OUT OF MY HOUSE BUT LAST NIGHT I TORE MY KITCHEN UP LOOKING FOR SOMETHING AND I FOUND WHAT I WANTED!!!! (stressed spelled backwards) I FOUND A BRAND NEW UNOPENED BAG OF CHIPS AHOYS COOKIES I KNOW THAT I MIGHT HAVE BROUGHT LIKE 2 MTHS AGO STILL FRESH BUT THEY WERE HIDDEN SO I MUSTVE BOUGHT THEM FOR MY SON AND HIDE THEM FROM MY SIGHT AND YES YOU CAN IMAGINE THE DAMAGE I DID TO THAT BAG. I LAID IN MY BED WITH MILK AND DUNKED EACH COOKIE AND ATE THEM WITH NO GUILT, AND WHEN I WAS DONE I LAID ON MY SIDE WITH DISGUST IN MY HEART AND BURPED. THIS IS WHEN I SAID OMG I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER. DO I FEEL BAD NOW?? HONESTLY NO. DID I FEEL BAD WHILE DOING IT? NO WILL I FEEL BAD LATER? MAYBE. WILL EATING THAT BAG OF JUNK MAKE MY PROBLEMS GO AWAY? NO. I AM STUGGLING HERE I HAVE BAD MY BAD DAYS AND GOOD DAYS I CAN SAY MY GOOD DAYS SO OUTWEIGH THE BAD BUT I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER. I HAVENT EVEN BEEN TO MY WEIGHT WATCHERS MEETING IN TWO WEEKS FOR MY WEEKLY WEIGH IN MONEY IS JUST SO DARN TIGHT AND I CANT GET TO THE STORE TO GET THE FOODS I NEED. IM JUST HOPING THIS SATURDAY I CAN MAKE IT TO MY MEETING I NEED IT BAD.